i am blasted to pieces

well! they have dropped the bomb on me yesteday, and i am blasted to pieces.

my anticipated transfer has finally came and with effective of 1st of September. it is all too soon and so i spend the whole of merdeka holiday, today packing my accumulative stuffs over a period of 30 years of service. it is a container full!

only now my adult students would be oversea students which are really not young sweet thing! its time to move on....

happy merdeka dazezzzzzzzzzz

pics from uncle google

to god i submit my humble self

god will not trial with something that you will not be able to carry. and his plans for you will not in any way go astray. and so to you my lord i submit my entire being.  and i will accept whatever is best for me.
dear heart, please do not demur

the slughtered cow

well being the best isn't necessarily gets where you what to go. as long as there are people who abuse the system, misconduct will lead to injustice. all your hard work, testimonies and pride just went down the drain.
i am tired of being the second skipper when you have to do all the dirty chores and the skipper gets the glory. i will kill you if you question my leadership qualities still!

harapkan panas sampai ke petang, rupanya hujan di tengah hari

sentap

You really don't know what you are missing until it is finally gone! and we always think that it happens to other people and never us. so we go on taking things for granted.

"sorry" is such a lame excuse to undo what has happen, the damage has already been done, it nevertheless carry no meaning and has no value at all at this juncture.

i have never demanded for much! i have never asked for things in return, or put any terms or conditions, all i wanted was a little understanding and respect. my sacrifices has been overlooked once too often. 
i have reached the point of putting my priority first since my presence is so insignificant and in-difference!

well! having said that! i wish you have a nice life!

owh! silly me, of course you don't even notice i am gone.

pic from google

abused

i am by nature a level headed, calm, composed and non-moody kind of a person. most of the time i give in so that i don't have to face with confrontational action. i give more than i get, and that's ok, i value friendship more than materials.

people like me are usually abused, taken for a ride, and only useful to those when they needed something. little that people realized that i have feelings and emotions too. 
if it is one thing that i cant tolerate is tantrums and moods.

i choose not to be categorised with those boisterous people that displays repugnance much more than propensity.

staronce beaten  twice shy? no this is a case of once too many, too often. i can't be your scapegoat for things that went wrong in your lives, it is not fair for me to take abuse for something someone else did to you. enough is enough! what did i ever do to you.

i am drawing a line right here and right now!

i am deleting you out of my l life. you are not worth keeping.

pics from google

abused

i am by nature a level headed, calm, composed and non-moody kind of a person. most of the time i give in so that i don't have to face with confrontational action. i give more than i get, and that's ok, i value friendship more than materials.

people like me are usually abused, taken for granted for, and useful to those only when they needed something. little that people realized that i have feelings and emotions too. if it is one thing that i cant tolerate is tantrums and moods.

i choose not to be categorised with those boisterous people that displays repugnance much more than propensity.

star

once beaten  twice shy? no this is a case of once too many, too often. i can't be your scapegoat for things that went wrong in your lives, it is not fair for me to take abuse for something someone else did to you. enough is enough! what did i ever do to you.

i am drawing a line right here and right now!

i am deleting you out of my l life. you are not worth keeping.

pics from google

No no no, not TNT. It's TNA

TNA Perbende?

Makcik Wiki says: TNA is the process of identifying the gap between employee training and needs of training. Training needs analysis is the first stage in the training process and involves a procedure to determine whether training will indeed address the problem which has been identified.

Training can be described as “the acquisition of skills, concepts or attitudes that result in improved performance within the job environment”.

Training needs analysis looks at each aspect of an operational domain so that the initial skills, concepts and attitudes of the human elements of a system can be effectively identified and appropriate training can be specified.

Training needs analysis is most often used as part of the system development process. Due to the close tie between the design of the system and the training required, in most cases it runs alongside the development to capture the training requirements.

In other words to put it in plain, simple language: before designing a course outline, consultants have to identify what is lacking in the performance of a particular group of participants and what are the skills organisers or participants wish to acquire by attending the particular course.

It is the duty of consultants to then, identify the learning objectives and more importantly the learning outcomes to make it an impactful training, coaching or courses.

show time! - to deliver the course outline to clients on a silver platter to see if it meets their needs precisely.

work out the details, go go go.....

3s

SSS atau 3s. Apakah?

Trainers should avoid this syndrom mandatorily. 

By switching on your active listening skill, then you would be able to tailor-make courses that clients wanted, that meet their needs and objectives the first place, therefore clients get their money's worth engaging us as their training consultant. 

Usually "Sindrom Syok Sendiri" of a consultant sees him as busy telling clients what and how he could do for them to the point of arm-twisting clients to wholly take what he has to offer. Instead he should listen and probe clients as what are their objectives, their aims and what they eventually wanted to achieve out of the course.

Only then consultant go right ahead and design precise courses, customize to what the clients desired.

I bet you get no less than 96% on the evaluation score sheet. Insya Allah!

Never underestimate the power of TNA.

rice porridge

He who offers food for those who fasted, will get the reward (pahala) just like the ones he has given the food to, without the person who fasted the whole day get any less of the reward from god the almighty.

Ramadan sees Muslims all over the world joining the rat race of giving sincerely to the less fortunate in order to make lives much better for the have-not.

The musolla where i pray organised a porridge cooking session Saturday morning as a social responsibility as well as hoping to gain the blessing, Insya Allah! and the final products were distributed to those who came shopping at the Alamanda Shopping Complex that particular afternoon, whether they fast or not.
The co-sponsors Aeon and Adabi provided the ingredients for cooking, big pots and stoves while the community of the musollah cook the porridge together.

The task was successfully completed just before the Zohor prayer. The porridge that has been placed into small container was distributed to the public immediately.

preparation of ingredients

things to cook

everything goes into the big periok

ready for distribution

OMG! Sedap giler!

multi-purpose laptop adjustable table with cooling fan

i have been wanting to buy this table for ages!

made a purchase online via Qoo10 for an exquisite bamboo laptop table with cooling fan, waited patiently for three weeks, checked my status, they cancelled it. goddamned it! how dare they!

and so i called up the customer care centre and was told that they have ran out of stock and will refund my money. had to wait for another 3 weeks for the refund to be credited into my account. bloody hell!

i was out shopping for something else at the IOI City Mall, but my eyes caught sight of this table and i liked it instantly. the trouble was they have sold that model out too and what was left was the display unit. i wanted it. during the demonstration session, one of the fan stop functioning. Arggggggh! i had to wait for another week for new shipment to come,

yesterday it came and i bought it.

with all excitement, i showed it to wanita cantek and told her that she could use it too if she wishes. you see, we are sinners of operating our laptops on the bed or on the bedroom floor while sitting against the bed, sometimes laying on the wooden flooring. 

lazy bums - that is what we are when the study table is just outside the bedroom with ample space for everyone, but no! we had to do it in the bedroom.

she said the table was also good for putting the holy quran when reading it, or even a fantastic casket for breakfast in bed. Ader fan lagi! omg, me and my big mouth! serve me right. why la do i ever have to offer usage of my laptop table to her.

i am sure she would come up with 101 more bright ideas of how to utilise the table when all i ever wanted was to use it for my laptop to prevent back injury to myself, no more straining my neck and back while doing my work at home.

then, it striked me like lightning and i told her: sayang! let me get you a brand-new breakfast tabletop. you can put your sewing machine on it too!

ps: wanita cantek is my pulchritudinous wife.

malu sangat

What you don't know won't hurt.

but then again ignorance is no excuse!

when JPN decided to change from 30k chip to 60k chip identity card almost 12 years ago i m one of those who was told to integrate my driving licence into the i.c. chip so that i don't have to carry two cards at the same time.

well that was convenient!

so i jumped into the band wagon and paid for my driving licence for 10 years. little did i know that they were not going to equip the patrol policemen with the card reader. god has been kind to me and i never had any bad omen or encounter, Alhamdulillah.

a couple of days ago my son asked me for my driving licence and i showed him my i.c. and told him it's in there!

"pa you got to be kidding me, we have to own a separate driving licence now for it is an offence if you don't have one!" and of course i fought like hell to his suggestions of getting a new card. i mean why should i? it's in there! the i.c.

he has just gotten his a week earlier and told me that he had a pleasant experience dealing with JPJ Putrajaya Branch. he told me that it was hassle free to renew driving licence now.

with him gone, back to his hostel in Kelantan, i finally plucked enough courage to go to JPJ Putrajaya branch at the Galleria this morning.

upon pressing my ticket no, i heard my number being called ever the QMS System and so i had to practically rush to the counter, almost running-over or knocking-down the other customers. there were only three of them, pun around.

then the officer at the counter dropped the bomb on me. i was told that my licence has expired two years ago! Gulp!!!!

at that very instant,  i felt  like running at the speed of lightning back to my car and drive like orang gila mabuk for fear that they would blacklist me, or worst -make me sit for the driving test once again.

the officer calmly just told me that i could take max 5 years, so i paid quickly, no back-tracked payment, no fine, no abusive words for being careless. Fuhhh!

OMG! 

They were so nice, helpful and efficient. just before i could open up my pouch bag to get my phone, there was a voice calling "Encik! dah siap". other government agencies could take one or few pointers from JPJ Customer Service, honestly!

Kudos to JPJ Putrajaya! can't wait to see u again - in 5 years.

***** (servis lima bintang)

OMG! AIMAN,

"G! please tell me how to loose those pounds on my lats."

Aiman is a cute young lad, about 24yrs of age and a graduate of culinary science with a passion for cooking and naturally tasting food, glorious food. He aspires to be an owner of a bistro very soon while in the meantime helping his mum delivering her floral arrangements to clients. 

She is a florist, a very famous one in Putrajaya. Most of the government departments, tan sris, puan sris, datuks, datins and hoi pollois are mostly her clients.

Aiman is on the gendud plump side but he is almost 6 feet tall. Naturally any little bulge would show on his deportment.

I told him he looked all right (dunno why people came up to me for advice on weight problems) but he told me "my friends said i have 360% breast. it shows especially at the back"

i could not help it but to burst into horrendous laughter. 

Aiman, you are hilarious!

pic from uncle google, not aiman's

pahala berpuasa

"meh duduk sini" said Cikgu Syarin holding my hand and pulling me towards a group of people who were ready to break their fast.

i was running late and so i thought why not? the breaking of fast is any minute now and i still hadn't any food with me, so i joined him and a few of our regular friends at the surau.

Luckily, there were people like Cikgu Syarin.

Already, there were few plates of dates with curry-puff and tepung talam, Cikgu Syarin was busy pouring the icy-cold watermelon juice that he brought from home into the paper cups and handed one to me, then there was azan and we all ate to mark the breaking of our fast.

"my daughter baked this cake and my wife prepared this sardine roll. i just made the drinks for all of us". and that has been the practice of Cikgu Syarin ever since the fasting season started this year.

Why go through all this trouble, i asked Cikgu Syarin, a pensioner whose stature is far from filthy rich

"Owh there is no trouble at all!"  Cikgu Syarin and his family members are well known to be fantastic cooks and one of the generous people in my surau seizing at every opportunity to contribute some kind of comestible or others.

"Allah said, he who gives food to those who fast, will reap of deed (pahala) of the person who fasted the whole day, without any less deed to the person who fasted" i hope god bless me with good health so that i could do this little bit this year. i might not meet another ramadan next year!"

"amiiin" was the reply from everyone simultaneously. he beamed from ear to ear. 
i felt ashamed of myself!

pics from uncle google

New Zealand, What a heaven on earth.

They say New Zealand is one of the most beautiful country in the world, you need to see, feel and taste it to know that it is so true.
Alluring, appealing, exquisite, fascinating, dazzling, superb, stunning, gorgeous... are only but few words to describe this magnificent country, where the population of cattle and lamb supersede human by so very far.

Tetiba, i am feeling down the rut!

The message was short and simple.

"banyak kali saya tanya macammana nak register"

"orang lain boleh cari blog saya,
so tak payah la pa cari.
Tak penting pon blog saya tu."

We always hurt the one we love, this is a good case.
And you know what, those moments together were most precious, being able to reach out, hold and touch someone with so much love and affection, but you can't have - to call your very own - the yearning felt very bitter.

There are times catching glimpses of the person would have to be sufficient and so you put on your smiling facade even though no one knows what you comprehended inside.

But it felt like a dagger straight into my heart when you can't even look at that particular face anymore since the "apple of your eyes" god knows why is gone.........

Team building

Been through two team building sessions this year alone.

The first group was new recruits of 240  personnel, and the second group was 170 executive officers.

These new recruits were to transcend into the corporate culture of the institution, within 4 days and 3 nights, and that was a very tall order for organizers, facilitators and secretariats to run the team building program, done in a camp almost in the jungle .

These people were not fresh intake that just came out of schools moving into labour market. Most of them have had 8 years of working experience with the organization under the "temporary staff" scheme and had picked up all the bad habits from their seniors in the office.

Nevertheless, most has a degree in either accounting, public administration, human resource management, computer science or law with CGPA 3.5 and above. That made it even a tall order by double,  a little too much to stomach. OMG!

But of course, the preliminary observation was discipline which was not adhered to: the tight pants and body hugging clothes which is hip, unsuitable hair styles to wear to the office. Instantly upon registration, they were given a choice of getting a proper cut or be given a free haircut by untrained stylist.

There were ice breaking session, then the fear factor: walking in the jungle at night, water confidence: free-drifting in a fast current river chilling, and explorace of collecting clues at checkpoints where they had prepare a meal with given materials ,built a raft and sail to an island.

Finally the small team merged into a big team as one and en masse! team building came to it's peak.

Afterwards, there were lectures on subjects of their job functions that they had to attend in the auditorium and they had to sit and pass the written exam.

On the the last nite, they performed a show to celebrate the success completion of the Induction Course.

Briefing of the activities of the day

Free Flow in River Chilling @ Kuala Kubu Baru

Building a Raft @ Brindley Camp Port Dickson

Rafting to an island @ Asia Camp

Preparing a Kenduri

Corporate Social Responsibility of Gotong Royong

Painting work at the Pavilion

The Live Performance Show-After

After 2 - 3 weeks of togetherness, it's such a sad affair to let them go back to their respective offices. Tear flows like a river.

Stop, Look and Believe it or not!

The figure that  I targeted for was 75kg. but with proper exercise and good diet my weight came down to it's lowest 72.2kg even after I was out of phase 4.
Well, how could this be possible? but it did and I am far from exasperated. Ya ya, ya, I know right? All that talk and no proof - it's too much to believe. caution: no camera trick and no adobe/print shop adjustment.
Well guys, reluctantly I post my achievement below. See it for yourselves. So need I say more?
All I need to do now is to get help from Ben Ashaari to get my six-packs.

biggest, bigger and big - no, no, no - I meant to say small

much alive

What?

for some of you who thought i was dead, i m very much alive and kicking.

i kicked so hard i was handling a induction course in a jungle in kuala kubu baru and afterwards flew to new zealand.

sorry for long absent, guilty as charged but hey!  i m not dead yet. not because of the diet.

i feel and look better now that i have managed to loose 13 kg in one and a half month, lalalalala.

fear

there has been lots of debate of the HCG Diet!

some doctors called it a dubious scam and some others support it with dear life. you have got to read the notes from the person who invented this diet: • Dr. Simeon's Protocol.

anyway, i have come to the end of sticking my body with syringe needles and i have lost a  little more than 10 kg, which was wonderful, considering Dr Simeon targeted result of only 7 kg in 30 days.
and owh, before it slips my mind, i have to thank my doctor Dr Nurdiyayana Ihsan who has been monitoring my weight loss and was there to assists me when i reach the plateau, or when my weight wont budge! thanks doc! i owe you my dignity and self respect.

i have been following the link http://www.hcgplan.net/ for more info and Valarie has almost complete articles about HCG. big thank you to Valarie too for unselfishly share almost everything you need to know about this wonderful diet.

in three days from now i wont be a "pregnant women" anymore, now that the hormone will be fully purge out of my system, that's a relief - and you know what? i still haven't grow breasts and my facial hair is still intact, sumpah! I swear

on the contrary, now that i won't be assisted by the hormone to burn the fat, will i gain weight for phase 3, where i could introduce slowly dairy products like cheese and a little oil into the menu. the food intake could be increase to 1500 gm and i m afraid all those hard dieting would go down the drain with weight gain. gulp!!!!

there are some truth in what the skeptical doctors says: any one who eats only 500 gm of food each day with or without the help of the hormone would loose weight. so what happens if you eat more food? would i gain weight?  takotnyer!

Dr Simeon in his protocol explains "Here too, the explanation is quite simple. During treatment the patient has been only just above the verge of protein deficiency and has had the advantage of protein being fed back into his system from the breakdown of fatty tissue. Once the treatment is over there is no more HCG in the body and this process no longer takes place. Unless an adequate amount of protein is eaten as soon as the treatment is over, protein deficiency is bound to develop, and this inevitably causes the marked retention of water known as hunger- edema. The treatment is very simple. The patient is told to eat two eggs for breakfast and a huge steak for lunch and dinner followed by a large helping of cheese and to phone through the weight the next morning. When these instructions are followed a stunned voice is heard to report that two lbs. have vanished overnight, that the ankles are normal but that sleep was disturbed, owing to an extraordinary need to pass large quantities of water. The patient having learned this lesson usually has no further trouble.

there is no turning back! i will have to persevere and see what happens next. owh my body!

cobaan

seriously!

i just can't believe it!

i am only one shot away to complete the session of sticking foreign hormone into my montel, comel cute tummy. 

come sunday i am done with syringe and hormone - owh what a relief! sumpah i swear! 

nevertheless, already by now i felt like a junkie, serious! but the good thing is that the injection into the fatty layer of the gut just below the belly button, leaves no marks at all due to the size of the needle. there was no blood blotch as well. immediately after taking the shot, i could just put on my shirt over the jabbed area and the shirt stays sparkling clean.

having said that, for the following 3 days the existing diet resume while the body detoxs from the HCG. but this is still not the end of the story. so what happens next?

i will have to shift gear to Atkins Diet for the next 3 weeks - just when i began to think that the suffering would finally be over. it is not.

while the good thing is that, the portion of meat and vege doubles to 200gm for lunch and dinner, and i could introduce a little oil into the cooking, just tiny, puny oil - no more! but the bad thing - strictly still no sugar (i use stevia drops into my coffee or ice lemon tea so i am ok) but no carbo and no starch, outch!!! that hurts like hell very much. already there are tears in eyes just thinking of the appetizing char koew tiew or mee mamak or pizza that i missed so very much at this point in time.

to make matters worst, there is an instruction from above for me to be part of the Team Building Workforce which will be carried out in a jungle somewhere in kuala kubu baru next week. "sudah jatuh di timpa tangga, pasu bunga pula menghempap kepala".

Oh my goodness, i just have to carry my entire kitchen to that goddamn place now don't i?

mobile kitchen

conquest

after you get a new body, what do you do?

shopping for new clothing of course. you deserve to change the skin after you have shed 10 kilos. its a celebration. 

call it Narcissism (the pursuit of gratification from vanity or egotistic admiration of one's own attributes), if you want. i dont give a damn!

anyway, few days ago i went to adidas boutique in Alamanda and there was this one  t-shirt that i fall in love with. it has just the right soft material, colour and design that i have been looking for, but alas, they don't have my size! bloody hell, what so special about this t-shirt is that it uses zipper instead of ordinary button from the neck to the chest. 

i was exasperated, no way am i going to accept the fate without giving it a tenacious fight.

for the past couple of days it has been nagging at me and today immediately after work, i went on a crusade of searching for the much desired outfit. first i went to alikhsan warehouse at the bangi sentral they have the right shirt but shit unfortunately the only one left is under size. i am more determined by now to hunt for it if i have to go to all their outlets and eventually to the supplier. i got the sale person to give me the code number of the item.

without wasting much precious time i race like hooligan to ioi city mall at putrajaya and showed them the code number while crossing my fingers. they looked at the computer and "sir we have one left of your size, do you want it? i grabbed the outfit like it was kin. boy was i lucky cause it was a 30% sale item. the salesman showed me the latest arrival section to somewhat similar pattern in white only slicker! and i wanted that as well for sure.

i went home beaming from ear to ear and felt all the running-around was all worth it!

cooking

i thought it was going to be tough cooking for lunch, 

as the matter of fact, it was not. 

on the contrary it was such a pleasure, providing u have everything you need within reach. 

i have saved a lot of time on preparation of my lunch by taking a short cut. no more peeling, cutting, slicing, grinding....know why?

i bought all the spices and ingredients in a bottle - salt n pepper, garlic, ginger, chili flakes, stake marinates all in the powder form and once i weigh the meat either beef, chicken breasts fish or eggs, i just sprinkled those spices on the fillet and in a minute it was ready for either grill, bake, fry or cook without any oil in my Tefal Actifry.

after all, it's only 100 grams of meat and 100 grams of vegetables.

it only took 20 minutes to grill my stake, 15 minutes to bake my fish and chicken breasts and 5 minutes for cooking my vegetables. the result was perfect every time. 

here are the testimonials:

bake jenahak with tomato

grill chicken breast with broccoli

beef stake with Pok Choy

roast beef

grilled beef with broccoli

asam rebus red snapper

roast chicken and broccoli

OMG! IT TASTED SO GOOD I M ALREADY LOOKING FORWARD TO COOKING THE NEXT MEAL. JOM..... LETS EAT.